Fresh Start

Emotional

2010-07-13T14:43:00.002+08:00

Looks like I'm in the slumps again...

Feeling extremely upset all of a sudden.
I'm still stress over the money issue I have cock up with...
Now cash on hand is $1050..
I cant think of any more items to sell on my side...

Basically come to think of it... I have always been useless and hopeless all the time..
I tried to be confident. But then shits just happens.

I dont know. Maybe I am just useless from the start..
I'm feeling really tired... Very very tried......

Sighs....

Sighs

2010-07-09T14:28:00.002+08:00

Right now i am feeling extremely bad...
I've sold my phone which brought in around S$350.

And right now i am waiting for another buyer to confirm the deal for my laptop which should be able to fetch around $600-$700.
So that bring me up to around S$950 cash..
If inclusive of my final month's pay of roughly S$ 1100

I am still short of around S$1,000...

I'm feeling extremely worse to the core.. where on earth can I go raise the S$1000.

Yes I tried borrowing from my friends and of course the results is obvious..
No one would lend...

I am really at the end of my wits...

FML....

Happy Birthday to me~

2010-07-08T14:28:00.002+08:00

Good afternoon all,

Wow! Looks like I didnt update my blog for a damn long long long time.
Maybe i am out of the student stage that I have to blog all the time to let out how i feel.
Well maybe i should start to do this more often...
Keep bottling my feelings up is super unhealthy in the end i guess.

Anyway today is my birthday and my family members are all at work so there is no one to celebrate with me.. Thus i guess i just round up a few of my friends and go for a quick bite before going home i guess...

Anyway some photo updates of myself as usual..
Still a camwhore as usual =x ok not as much some scenery photos also =D

nice picture of the moon at 1am.

Needless to say...

Needless to say as usual...
Sunset at Marina Bay Sands =)

I will update this blog more often from today onwards =D

Some Updates =)

2010-01-05T19:29:00.003+08:00

Taken when i was working in my friend's company for the month

Me and Sing Ying

Me and Singying again

hmm I guess I'd post more pictures tomorrow I supposed? I have no idea what to post about at the moment.

After Christmas and Before New Yr

2009-12-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

Alright before i start posting something.

I shall wish every a LATE merry christmas and a early happy new year. I have been neglating this blog for god knows how long....

Been working for my friend recently but stopped after his daughter came back from Australia and thus returning the position back to her.

No its not my friend's fault. Its her rightful position anyway plus I cant stand that bitchy secetary of his. Total control freak.

Ah well time to look for another job i supposed.

Right now I am super addicted to World of Warcraft.
Right now am having a lvl 70 undead Mage. Which i managed to level within 3 weeks.
Cool right?
But I guess I'm spending too much time on the comp rather than looking for a new job.

*Broke broke*

ah well went to buy the Warith of the Lich King expansion Set.
Which cost like $70 bucks!
*Heart pain heart pain!*

Right now the dam game is patching
*been patching for the past 4 hrs*
*Curses and swears*

Will upload some photos soon after the patching is done.
Do not know whether I have the extra bandwidth to upload the pictures too...

Oh ya I'm using mobile broadband currently.
Why?

Thanks to my pro brother.
I do not know what has gotten into him.

Everything he listens to his girlfriend and obeys her like *toot*
Ok fine i fk care.

He want to lead his life?
No one is stopping him.

As a man as a FATHER
What did he do to raise his son?
NOTHING !
When our elder sister lectures the little one he dares to make a big hoo haa over it?
When he never bother to do anything!
We know what that girl of his did to anson and we never tell him.
Aiya now say also useless like as if he will listen.

That night when my sister slaps anson. My mom and my sister HEAR that the girl is shooing anson out of the room. Plus how does she do it? Like chasing a dog away sound!
My mom and sister doesnt wanna make things look ugly thats why they kept quiet.
In the end. All my brother sees is just the surface of things and that girl's side of the story.
Forget it. I do not wish to comment more on him any longer.
This is how he want to be sure no problem.
Like i say ...

FK CARE!

All he does is stay in the room play the comp smokes drinks.
Etc etc.
What else did he do?
Nothing!

The more i think about it the more frustrating it gets!

Ok fine out of topic about him.

Lets see...

I skipped Christmas celebration for I know it will be a messy one.
Year end celebration.... I'd stay at home too..
Dont wanna be sprayed by snowflakes again.

Got a feeling that the whole town will be extremely dirty by the next day....

Well nothing much to post at the moment.
Will upload the pictures tomorrow =D

Thats all.

How lucky can I get?!?!?

2009-09-19T18:14:00.002+08:00

Today my nephew complain that he wanna go to the docs due to some minor cough n flu ok fine. I am being aim to do so in which I am glad to do so in the END.
Ok fine to the docs we go.
Halfway rain!
NVM.
Go NTUC buy what my mommy wants. Strawberry and carton of milk.
My nephew give me one gd reason for not holding his own medicine.
Yuan having fever~ cannot take things.
Swee bo?
Still nevermind.
Itchy hand touch here and there..
Nvm I still lun.
When crossing the road the bus drived past and some water splash on my leg its ok.
So i stand behind abit more.
10secs later a FUCKING car SPEED PAST!
Wamp! Whole body splash! WET!
Rushing go where sia? Recarnation!??!
ZZZZ
I am wet so i refuse to carry my nephew and i gave him the umbrella to use and me under the rain.

Thats pissed off no.1 for today.

second incident.
My nephew JUST DROP MY LAPTOP BATTERY ON THE FRIGGING FLOOR!

The side CRACKED!
ARGH!!!!
I wanna beat him but i cant!!!
And i will not anyway.
Not my son.
Obviously my brother cant be bothered about it also.

So many unlucky things happening to me at one go right after i lost my wallet and nric!
ZZZZZZ

What else still can happen =.=!

Feeling so fk up right now

2009-09-18T21:31:00.001+08:00

Have been emo-in for two days now... Due to the fact i lost my wallet 2 nights ago with my NRIC and 600dollars cash in it!
Sad!
Hopefully pple kind enuf will return me my NRIC...
Nevermind the cash....
Haiz...
Feeling so upset rightnow =.=

Some Nice Scenery Photos

2009-09-16T10:31:00.005+08:00

Took this sunset view 2 days ago outside my fren's home when i go help fix her computer
I forgotten where I took this pic from wahahaha
Took this picture at a play near my the other fren's home

Nice weather hor? ^^

Took this while on the way walking to causeway point for a movie with singying

Might as well update alot at one shot before i get nag at wahahaha

Will upload more pictures when i see anything nice nice

Mommy's Bdae~

2009-09-14T18:30:00.004+08:00

Mommy's Bdae 9th September 2009

went out to toapayoh to eat crabs as what they like =3Mommy and daddy with fruits

Our Chilli Crabs =3

Veges and sweet sour pork chops and chilli kan kong

Mommy reading newspaper

My nephew Anson with a silly face

Doggie Joining in the fun

Mommy with cake at home after dinner

Mommy with cute post =D

Sorry that all the pictures are not in order... Coz blogger will mess up the sequence and I am too lazy to edit the HTML version =D

Thats all for my mom's bdae celebration ^^

Updates

2009-09-02T16:32:00.002+08:00

Ahaha... My fren is hounding me to update my blog for dunno what reason...
Seems like after I started work I really neglated this blog totally.
Ah well...
Nothing much..
Quitted my current job due to the fact that my boss n lady boss accused me of stealing their things when they cant even show me the prove...

Their thinking is we're wrong means we're wrong..
Coz why? They are the bosses they pay our salary.
Whatever the lame reasoning they can give I do not give a dam..
Since they cannot show me the proof right?
I'll write a letter to MOM in such if they do deduct my pay over such accusation.
I will not take this lying low..

Yee Shan told me alot of juicy stuffs regarding some people in the company..
No matter how friendly I am to them ended up they still are backstabbing badmouther...
LMAO.
Sorry lor. I look stern I look fierce but hey did you all bother to know who I am?

bull... bunch of bull!
Fk it..
This is so pissed off..
Right now looking for new jobs
Do not care what job it is..
Just need some cash to survive 1st.. Thats the main piority for this.
Ah well....
Fk everything. My life is a mess and still I have to live with it....
Dunno what else to update will update with some pictures tomorrow after I go for a drinking session with my god sis which i havent been seeing for a few months and I'd ask her regarding my this issue and what to do about it.

Good day everyone.

From: Sandra

Updates!

2009-07-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

Siao liao i so dam long nvr update my blog at all.
To hell with me I guess...
Due to the fact my poor Sony Ericsson C905 was down for the past 1week or so thus I nvr get to take any pictures during my bdae! BOO!!!!
This suxs to the core!
ACK!
Anyway

8th July 2009
My god sis and also a.k.a my best friend treated me to a manicure, facial and spa session... Then night time bring me go fei chui makan but hor...
Everything is perfect for the day except the dinner time...
One thing dam stupid is, my god sis and her hubby ordered mee and some roasted duck and meat..
I ordered a plate of FRIED RICE.
Bloody hell I waited for 40mins and my rice still havent show up....
This is so bloody pissed off..
All the tables around me have their food ordered and arrived accept for my fried rice..
There's no explaination or watsoever...
All the stupid manager can do is just keep saying sorry sorry sorry...
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Anyway pple do not go to crystal jade J8 outlet... Their service suxs to the core due to this incident.
once my god sis start complaining to the manager.. the frigging fried rice appeared on the table in less than 1min..
Pro hor?

Now i am the stupid SIC for JP...
Guess what?
SIC = to no SIC
Dun wanna go into too much details for that....
Got backstabbed a few times...
Also do not wish to talk about it...
Feel like posting some photos but it will take a stupid long time..
Plus I do not have the energy to slowly upload one by one too...
ZZZZ

Today's sales is dam bloody stupid! $80.60 before GST, after is $75.33

I can prepare to receive a phone call from Pauline again!
Saying... Congrats Sandra, you have just broke the record of JP!
Fk it..
this is what I can be expecting tomorrow..

ZZZZ

Saw one bag in Avant-Garde... Dam nice.. same design as what sing ying bought but bigger..
I prefer bigger bags anyway lol can stuff more things inside.
Wahahahaha....

Still do not know what to update then I shall stop here ba...

Gd Day

Pubbing 25th June 2009

2009-06-27T23:55:00.003+08:00

lol my friend personally took a plane to come to singapore from KL to visit me so I went drinking with him that night.

We choose the pub Le Noir..

Pretty nice place with 80's songs =D

Pretty much enjoyed myself.

Havent felt so relax for such a long time.

attached above are the pics that night.

Sad day

2009-06-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why do I even bother to have a rest day when I also keep kena scolding at home for no reason...
Really might as well work 30days straight better..
Ack!

Some photos of the nice weather I took recently..

Nice right?
All these photos are taken by my new handphone sony ericsson C905.
Thus it can save me a sum at this end of the month which I do not need to spend much money on a new camera when this phone packs up everything

The rest would be me cam whoring at the shop when I am feeling SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Bored.
I know I'm fat and ugly so be it...
this is my blog and I can post anything I like.. Just close this browser if the photos are disturbing to your eyes.
*copyright of mine. any illegal posting of somewhere else will be reported to the police*

ok end of cam whoring session..
Have a good time looking or just close this browser thanks =.=

so tired

2009-06-13T00:21:00.002+08:00

ahahaha so many days nvr update this blog. i ought to be shot in the head..
For some reaosn I felt like a unwanted child and girl by anyone else...
Dont ask me why, due to some happenings at home and outside thats why I'm feeling like this...
Am i that distasting that no one wants me at all?
I am feeling so sad right now..
Haiz..
Work is like shyt as usual..
The usual nonsense customer..
Today got one customer threaten me some more.
Coz she bought the puzzle in the past thus now during our great singapore sale we are not allow to give the frame a 20% discount if not bought with the puzzle.
Say I rigid and will ask all her friends not to buy from us any longer.
Like hell... I am not the one who set the bloody rule also.
tmd..
At home isnt any better.
Keep getting scolded for no reason..
I really feel like an unwanted child..
Haiz..
Anyway I feel like changing to a sony ericsson c905 phone.
Thus wish to sell away my nokia 5800..
A bit she bu de but still I think I can use a phone more easier with a key pad..
haiz..
Feeling so tired right now..
And feeling very upset..
Anyway I shall stop here since there is nothing to post about...
got ignored by someone i thought is special..
haiz.. ah forget it..
Like I said I am just a unwanted person.
Lol..
Maybe I will be better tmorrow I hope..

Nights all.

Bored...

2009-06-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hi all... I am so bored right now..

Work's all boring also...

Miss the days when I have a bf to pamper me...

Kinda feeling lonely all of a sudden... *emos*

Ahahaha...

Crazy me...

Dunno what has gotten into me...

But oh well...

Thats life...

Hmm...

Nothing much to blog today coz nothing much happened..

Oh ok I reached work at 9.30am today thx to my elder sis and dad.

Kena scolding for no reason.....

Really... Since staying at home is as stressful as at work like this I rather leave for work early and reach home late..

Lesser trouble.

Haiz...

No picture updates again coz I am too lazy to take one ever since my digital camera went bye bye.

Weeee.............

Sianz... Suxs big time...
I really hope and wished to be loved again...
Really what has gotten into me...
ZZzzzz suddenly just feeling so emotional!
ack.
Sua I better go to bed before any of this gets worse.
Nights all =.=

Blogging for the sake of blogging

2009-06-08T00:37:00.002+08:00

Hey all. how are you guys doing?
Looks like I willl try to blog everyday onwards for good time sake..
Well today i got my shipment of new puzzles and it helped me alot.
My sales is 100% for once!
Working with Jue Ying is so fun and cute..
Cant bear to see her leave at the end of this month..
Haiz how sad.. But no choice she has to concentrate on her studies also..
Cannot blame her for wanting to leave..
Good luck gal you will be remembered in my mind all the time..
Such a nice girl =)

I'm so bored at home.. Waiting for my hair to dry takes such a long time everynight...
thus I cannot sleep fast enough...
I still got ALOT of stocks lying around in the shop thus It is in a mess..
Hopefully I wont get screamed at tomorrow
Wahahaha...
Lets see anything to update?
I Guess not other than good sales...
Hmmm........
Oh ya.. my shipment came to my shop at a good timing...
Got one regular cusomter almost bought all my Mandala puzzles..
Except for the last box otherwise my sales should be around 2k for today but hey, they helped me out alot so I am really greatful...
those who wish to buy puzzles can come and look for me at my work place at Jigsaw Puzzle World @IMM, beside challenger.
Now got discount. 20% off the frames when you buy a matching size puzzle.
Ahahaha..
Fancy doing promotions of my work in my blog.
Like I said like as if who will bother to read..
I dont care..
Its my blog and I can just say anything I like, but basically no insulting of people will be found in my blog.
I have a standard to upkeep =)

Ok ba my hair has dried at last... time to go to bed.
Nights all..
Luv you all

Huiru/Sandra

So....... Tired

2009-06-07T00:22:00.001+08:00

Ahahaha managed to log on to my comp and blog abit.
Today sales at work is so bad..
I guess I'd be the last on the ranking list...
How sad...
No new pics to update coz I didnt bother to take any at the moment... Ahahaha..
HOw sad....
OK la i think I will just blog a short one...
Today I'm working with my part timer Daryl.
He is so cute. So good to bully.
Ahahaha.. But dont think it otherwise. He's fun to talk to =)
Thats why I like to bully him somehow =D

Ok la I think I will go to bed le since my hair has dried.
Nights all =)

Updates?

2009-06-04T20:04:00.002+08:00

Lol looks like I am REALLY lazy to update my blog totally!
Well i log into maple this morning and guess I'd do abit of scrolling and this is what I got!

so so so happy! Making it a total tma23 earring! wahahaha ok its no big deal vs those pro scrollers in the game but hey I tried =/
1st time in my whole maple history i managed to scroll something so nice!
*Grins*

anyway more pictures of myself to come. sry I love to camwhore coz I got nothing to do at work and its so so so so so boring!

i know i look hideous when I dont put on make up

*side track abit I dyed my hair some what gold? which the out come colour i do not know is what rubbish colour*

more to come
I'm feeling that I'm beginning to become more and more like xiaxue which I hope I am not
*Ack*

the innocent look

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some sweet guy says i should smile more which I seldom smile but I'll try for his sake ba.
haha
lame me =.=

looks like the mirror is really my best friend...

like I said in my earlier post. i managed to down 2 jean size from 38 to 36 (thx to someone in the past which I do not wish to mention ever again. may he rot in hell like I care much)
Now my 36 is also starting to get looser.
Goal for the month..
try to down to jean size 34.
Currently weight is around 88kg ^^
Lost around 11kg in 1.5 months.

So so happy...

Work is horrible as usual.
so much backstabbers..
Zzzz so stress...
Feel like crying at times but hey a girl gota be strong..
Otherwise I will just be letting myself down..

Birthday coming soon and hopefully I'd have some pleasent surprise that day...
*hopes*
Hmm...
Nothing much to type about already.
Since my sis sold me her new lappy at 800 bucks (use less than 10 times)

Comp specs
=========
Acer Aspire 4935G
Intel Core 2 Duo processor T6400
(2.0GHz, 800 MHz FSB, 2MB L2 Cache)
Up to 1791MB Nvidia Geforce 9300 GM GS Turbocache
4GB DDR2
320GB Hdd
802.11a/b/g/dDraft N 3x3 Wlan
14"ch lcd screen

Works very well and its a gemstone blue version too..
Very chio!
I loan my old lappy to my bro which he is doing a good job upkeeping it so i guess its in good hands.
Which since I have another lap top to bring to work i guess I can blog as and when I want to from today onwards.
Horray I guess thou which I think no one bothers to read this blog also~
Wahaha...
Ok la I zilian enuf..
Take care all

Love,
Sandra

OMG

2009-05-25T23:52:00.003+08:00

Oh my gosh!
I am so lazy recently that I cant be bothered to blog...
Well like who cares?
No one will be reading it anyway too.. Bleh...
Anyway I feel like taking pictures recently thus these are the new pictures I took yesterday at work.

Yes yes I know I'm vain... I'm a girl ok... Who doesnt like to take pictures~
Bleh...

Still sick =.=

2009-05-08T20:05:00.003+08:00

Hey people this is the latest picture of myself taken like yesterday while I am at work...

Well my hair is tied right up so I look *bleh* ugly =.=

Doesnt matter...

Just updating after all....

Have been sick for 2 whole weeks already went to doc on monday 4th May to get some medicine to eat...

But till now 8th May when I have finish my whole medicine course my sickness still isnt getting any better...

Feeling so sick right now!

Argh!

Running nose and sore throat..

So much phiem in my throat...

Feeling so disgusted..

Anyway I was planning to blog every night but the phone web server doesnt support blogger thus it keep auto close everytime I try to even type anything and worse case of all I cant delete any wrong letters or words I write in it.

Sucks right?

Haiz... Using the phone to surf the web does have its limitations... Sad to say...

For some reason I miss the feeling of getting pampered and loved..

Haha..

Good news.. My weight at last dropped till 89kg...

So happy...

Slowly slowly lose my weight ba...

Thats all I can look forward to now anyway...

8.11pm still kinda early..

But still I will blog for a while before I go and shower and rest up for the night.

Tomorrow still need to go to work and I have to work alone also due to the fact all the part timers all last min cannot work.

Ah well used to it.

It isnt the 1st time such thing happens also.

At last Rosalind told me who leak out the secret that I got a scolding from about revealing the basic salary.

Which I DIDNT

Doesnt matter. Its all over.

If those bloody *tootz* wanna play punk I shall let them be..

I also cant be bothered to call any other people from other outlets to check out how they are or how is their sales.

Really non of my business also.

I will just concentrate on running my shop in IMM peacefully then.

No point getting angry over low lifes that stabs people behind their back even in such a simple retail line job like such.

I am so disappointed with people now adays.

No one can be trusted at all..

Well that teaches me to be too trusting to any other people..

For now I will just keep to my ownself.

Basically the world is like a pack of lies..

Best is to believe in your ownself...

At least protects oneself from getting hurt or anything...

My nose is blocked again and I'm coughing again...

Tomorrow need to work work work my head off...

Saturday... Hopefully the sales will be slightly better and not worse off like last week, otherwise I am so gonna cry like crap.

So so so tired, head so giddy....

I wonder what else can I blog about also. Nothing in specific I guess..

Oh ya I plan to get a new digital camera next month when I get my pay.

My old camera's charger is with him...

And I do not plan to call him anymore just to get one silly charger back.

I've learnt my lesson and I shall not step into it anymore.

I'm happy being single at the moment but if I am able to meet my Mr Right maybe I can trust in love again hopefully...

Thats all I shall post about tonight...

Maybe I will take a few pictures of my shop tomorrow and blog about it if I ever get the chance

Otherwise it will be during my off days if I do so.

Take care all!

Good night.

Updates..... Again

2009-05-04T17:51:00.001+08:00

Hi all this time round I am the store in charge for the IMM Branch.
Lol...
Haiz I'm very demovitated at work cox I got sabo by the so call people I deem as friends at work...
Not happy that my basic is slightly higher than them, thus complain to rosalind..
Ya... Big fuck... Complain ba big babies...
Not happy come talk to me no need stab people behind their backs!

Long updates

2009-04-15T11:53:00.002+08:00

Ahahahaha..... forgot to blog last off day...
Thus I'll update everything that I can today... till my next offday at next tuesday...
Hmmm.....
Work's fine... everything's going smoothly....
Ah well.... I do not think I can get along very well with everyone...
As all knows I'm more of a introvert and pesmisstic type of girl....
Lol...
Anyway... Went to help my sister collect her laptop from best denki last off day that explains why I'm not online to chat or blog about anything....
In the process I bought a hair straightener =P
Cost me a wooping $129!!!!
Argh!!!! I wont be able to buy anything until my pay day till this end of the month which is still a long long long way to go....!!!! =.=" urgh!!!
zzzz
anyway I will post the before and after straightening version of me in a short while...
Back to blogging!
Hmm... At least its cheaper on the long run of going to the salon and straightening your hair once every few months, then they say you mist buy blah blah blah and blah blah blah so that it can last and everything...
So annoying... I rather wake up abit earlier daily and do my own hair is more of a better choice..
Hmmm..... Will be watching the movie taken at gv bishan later... I do not wish to go to gv in yishun due to some reasons...
I've may have let go but I do not wish to remember stuffs that is not necessary...
Haiz...
Doesnt matter....
Anyway the movie will be at 7.10 pm later....
Lol...
As usual will be watching it alone....
Like I always did in the past except for that 4 yrs...
Hmm...
Ok la I do not know what else to post at the moment...
Will come back and post about the reviews of that movie once I Watched it later tonight =D
Take care all!

Long Awaited Off day of the Week

2009-04-03T10:12:00.003+08:00

Yay!!! At last I got my well deserved off day, but hey not exactly I'm the super hardworking kind of employee at work...
Ahahaha... Kinda slapping myself in the face by saying that.
Well... Yesterday I open the Tampines Mall branch by MYSELF for the 1st time after 2 weeks plus of training... And guess what?
It was terrible...
Sales is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Bad!
Well managed to cling a $240.25 sales at last min of the night which boost the sales up to almost 50%~
Blah.... I told Jacqueline I am the super "heng" type... Guess what?
Its true anyway~
Lolx =.=
Total sales for ytd is around $448.... Haix....
Today is off day!
Well i dont feel like playing the comp for some reason but still I still on and log in to blog abit and rant rant rant!
Sibei sibei tired....
I still feel so sleepy right now...

*Add-on*
Got one guy asked for my number during my 2nd day of work and asked me to be his gf that same night... (one thing worse off is he uses the same name as what david uses online to flirt with other girls. Which is... Kenny! Urgh =.="""
I was thinking hmm.... Maybe a new start would be good...
But the 2 and half weeks together was horror..
He quarrel with me over trival things like why I never reply the question he asked when I specifically told him that I do not wish to answer it. Why I dont like to take pictures with him, his frenz gf so loving and caring towards him... Blah blah blah...
Ok he reminds me of whom I am in the past and now I've changed...
What I am in the past, childish; immatured; bad tempered; self-centered.
I gave in to him all the time and he got worse..
Until the final straw.....
I broke up with him 2 days ago..
I dont care... Seems like I'm numb over love right now ever since the failed relationship of me and david.
But hey... I still care for him but as a friend now...
Hopes he will grow up and settle down soon... (obviously it wont be me la. Ha ha ha) Anyway I have no intentions or whatsoever to look for a new relationship or bf. I'd just enjoy life while I can. Thats the best way I can love my ownself. Maybe meet up with Ah Bee when she comes back from London =D

Anyway to continue... My laptop is still charging so I wont be able to post any pics of my work place for the time being.... The weather is so good right now...
Feel like catching a movie at causeway point, confessions of a shopaholic! The reviews seems so nice... Feel like watching it....!!!
Urgh!
Its a friday so the tix should be cheaper than after 5pm i guess...
Should I or shouldnt I?
Any suggestions?
I doubt anyone would bother to read my blog also...
So I basically just post for fun, joy and laughter...
Thou I dont sense any laughter here at all...
Wahahahaha...
Blah.
Tomorrow and Sunday will be working at IMM outlet...
This is gonna be hell....
Next offday would be next week thursday.
Till then. =)

Take care all.
*Will post some pics if I have the chance or feel like it =P *

Updates after almost 2 weeks

2009-03-24T08:20:00.003+08:00

I am so shacked....
My mom got drunk yesterday night thus I have a shock of my life.
My mom drunk?
1st time I seen her like this for 23yrs of my life!
Right now she is more stable... (hopefully)

I started working @ a shop call Jigsaw Puzzle World
Basic is $1,350 per month.
After 3 months will have commission if my work performance is up to standard.
Working time is 10.30am to 9.30pm if including closing and everything, usually will stretch up to 10.15pm.
I am so tired...
Everyday have to stand for at least 11hrs...
But what to do that is the life of a retailer...
I do not have much choice of a work anymore...
Ok ba thats all for updates..
Love you guys... and take care...

Work from today on.

2009-03-13T09:02:00.000+08:00

Hi all I'll be starting working from today onwards, I didnt posted any blogs at all for the past few days cox my phone browser will just auto close and not load blogger at all so I really dunno why, hahaha.
I'll be a retail sales assistance and working from 10.30am till 9.30pm, those really concern or care about me will know how to find me, either thru sms or phone call.
If I'm online in msn meaning I'm on my mobile.
If I never reply means I'm busy serving customer. Thus I'm not being dao to all xD
Take care all.
Will update this when I have the time to do so.
Tatas.

Feeling abit emo again

2009-03-10T12:34:00.001+08:00

Haha.. i do not know why I keep dreaming of him recently when I've already tried my best not to think about him..
Thus the frown...
Pictures are attached..
Just feeling abit emotional.
My mom says when I find a guy that truely loves me, she say I will think why am I so foolish right now to keep crying because of him...
Hopefully she's right..

blah! I felt so miserable again.

Small Outing

2009-03-10T12:07:00.002+08:00

This morning I managed to wake up early so I brought the dog down, but my fever still persist @ 38.4 deg.
Stupid rain.... Made me sick...
Haiz..
Anyway followed my parents to bring my nephew to his childcare center..
Next we went to NTUC to do some grocery shopping.

Bought some stuffs for home then next stop we went to the wet market behind my home to buy some flowers for tomorrow's chu yi.

Camwhored abit while waiting for my parents outside the wet market.

And the flowers for the altar

Lazy to eat breakfast coz dont feel like eating..
And now at home blogging regarding this..
Hahaha..

Dog Grooming

2009-03-09T15:44:00.002+08:00

Today is a bad day to bring my dog for grooming..
I made the appointment for her to be brought down at 12pm and guess what?
HEAVY RAIN POUR!!!
)*%$#%(#$&%(@#&%$)&*%)#*%)$#
Nevermind.. Just a short walk to the bustop.
No big deal..
I bundle her into the bag and off we go..
I took bus service 858, and alighted at chongpang.
Actually the journey to chongpang is clear, no rain nothing.
Guess what again, once the stupid bus stopped and I was about to alight.
IT RAINED EVEN MORE HEAVILY!
WOOPEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Argh.. Nevermind...
Got drenched in the heavy rain and strong wind even though I brought an umbrella along..
Right now having a 38.6 deg fever..
Head so giddy... Ok la I stop blogging le..
Time to orh orh...
Nights people.

Reviews on my Nokia 5800 Xpress Music

2009-03-08T08:23:00.003+08:00

Hmm... I know the previous post of this phone is really super side tracked..
Well I shall do a proper post on it now.
(I will provide the pictures later in the day when I bother to take them)

Lets start with the pricing..
I bought it from Hello!SingtelShop At CausewayPoint @ $298 (with hidden cost and everything)
The main reason why I bought this phone is coz its the 1st touch screen phone by nokia and it looks so sleek and chio.Ok thats the least convincing thing to get you guys to believe but hey, thats how I felt anyway.
Thats why i trade in my nokia n series n81 to get this phone (there's another reason to it but i do not wish to mention it)
But still I will start off with the packaging..

Its a box set comes with... 5800 Xpress Music phone with the 8gb microSD card already inside. High capacity charger (AC-8) x1, 1 mini usb data cable, one handsfree headset, instructions manual, comes with music card for 1 yr, extra stylus, pc-suit (mini dvd), a plastic carrying case, a rubberise landyard with a small nokia plastic pick for those lazy bumps who do not wish to keep pulling their stylus out to use it on the phone: thus the pick works well as well just that not as pinpoint accuracy as the stylus, DOES NOT come with a screen protector(so you have to go SLS or anywhere else that does sells it). This mostly covered everything.

Add-on: the stylus is clipped on quite tightly to the housing behind the phone, if you all managed to lose the stylus i really nothing much to say unless its truely a freak accident.

Functions, its a S60 based phone same as the N series thus it pretty much covered every functions till n95 =).Maybe its not as responsive as the famous iPhone, but to me its more than enough and with the expandable storage space(up to 16gb) and able to change the battery if it's spoilt, I will take this phone rather than the iPhone(Which I've already diid). What programmes you can use on a S60 v3 can mostly be used on this s60 v5 phone, except for the games of course, you need to go and search in the web for those fully touched screen games to be compatiable for this phone so pls do take note regarding this point.Oh ya the current version of this phone is until version5. Do not ask me where did people get the firmware till verson 20. I do not wish to find out and risk spoiling my phone due to this =P (I am not a risk taker)

Add-on: Oh ya for some reason the msn is not launched for this phone thou the website http://www.nokia.com.sg says it is, plus I am unable to find it under the download page. Thus pls use the fring application first, it covers msn, Yahoo Chat, Skype and everything all in one. Basically its still a newly launched phone, my suggestion is you go google for ipmart for the latest applications and games for this phone. (mouth zips)

Its a very good song player thats why its a Xpress Music, the speaker on the sides are so loud and clear, as good as listening to the songs directly from my own laptop. But for some reason its still not loud enough to attract my attention to incoming calls whenever its in my pocket or in my bag, maybe I have too much things in my mind I guess.... Ah well.... It too comes with nokia maps and agps, that can navigate you around the whole singapore, (only on you agps if your subscripted to a unlimited data usuage plan, otherwise it will play a heavy part in your upcoming bill).

One flaw I've seen in this phone during web browser surfing is that it will auto close by itself for no particular reasoning... But it happens quite rarely so I never really put it into mind.

Home Screen. For some reaosn, it can only placed up to 4 shortcuts only but there's a contact button and dialler button at the bottom of the screen thus I guess thats shortcut 5 and 6.
Or you can choose 4 people's contacts to be placed until the shortcut in the Homescreen those you frequently call =) (I used to have one that I truely love and care and chatting with him on the phone daily is a bless to me but those days are over already..), thus I never put any contact shortcuts at all... haha.. But you can put your appointments right at the front also, thus it will always reminds you of the latest appointments upcoming and you shall never miss any of it.

It runs on a 3.5mm jack at the top of the phone which is compatibable with any normal mp3 headsets in the market.

The camera is a 3.2mp with AutoFocus and dual LED Flash, picture quality wise it sill lose out to cybershot Sony Ericsson, but if pictures aint a issue to you, this phone is pretty good in a sense, it can take videos in mp4 high quality format which can be shown on the LCD tv in a 16:4 ratio aspect.

The phone is lightweight and easy to carry around (for those who are afraid of bulky phones)

Hmm, sms wise, you can input ur msg in alphanumerical keyboard, mini qwerty or full qwerty keyboard, handwriting recoginzing is also avaliable =)

So I guess I should have covered almost everything about this phone in this review, if I missed out anything pls feel free to email me at forevalovinyou@hotmail.com and I shall add on for the missing information ^^.

Thank you folks for reading this crappy review =D

Special Post for the pple in HWZ

2009-03-07T14:34:00.003+08:00

Yo cumtowel, yea I am ugly so what.
For a person who can only judge people by sex and looks wise, how better are you?
Let me guess when you got married and your wife grews old your gonna divorce her and get a younger one then?
By all means go ahead.
You just showed me what you are trying to deem.
Looking old doesnt meant a shyt kiddo.
Your mentality is seriously like a small boy.
Boo hoo hoo, yea whatever.
Posting this post is just a waste of my brain juice.

My Missing Smile Since 4yrs ago

2009-03-06T12:42:00.003+08:00

For how long have I not smile so happily ever since I was with him?
I spent my time worrying and caring and crying for him, what did I get in the end?
Nothing...
I got abandon by him when I need him the most.
Bah! Forget about the past.
Its the present and future now that counts.
I know I'm camwhoring again but at least I lost some weight and I'm PROUD of it.
Planning to lose more and prove pple wrong and that its his loss that he choose not to have me!
Wahahaha.
Sorry I sounded insanely crazy, well because I am right now.
Blah blah blah....

As promised. Pictures~
If you bother to compare with the pictures I posted in the past.. You all should notice whether I ever smiled so happily before...

ya ya dont flame.. Haha -.-

Picture Quality of the Phone 3.2 mp with AF

2009-03-04T16:18:00.002+08:00

so how is it guys? are the quality still good enough?

Ofcoz i wont ask for too much coz if I need a camera phone a Sony Ericsson is still a better choice due to its cyber shot technology

Add on pictures of the Nokia 5800 Xpress Music

2009-03-04T09:02:00.003+08:00

yo yo.. Nice phone right? Its so light n easy to use =x
Haha.. Just posting some pictures of it when I forgot to add on in my earlier post plus its too messy to add on =/
Lol
have fun

add-on: on ya.. the background picture is my brother's room, so pls ignore the messiness =D

My New Gismo

2009-03-04T08:22:00.003+08:00

Hahaha... 2 days ago I got myself a new toy..

No no no no. Do not think it the wrong way.

Its not a new buy toy =D

Its better than a boy toy xD

No offence to the guys outside =)

Its........................ A................................ Brand.............. NEW NOKIA 5800 XPRESS MUSIC!

Basically it the FIRST touch screen phone ever to be made by nokia!

The sleek design is so chio.

There's no keypad hidden thus its mainly all touch screen.

It runs on the S60 mobile technology.

Its somehow better than windows mobile system in my own opinion... (Tested with my friend's omnia 8gb and didnt really like it)

All the technical specs taken by http://www.nokia.com.sg/

Specs:

Size
Form: Classic with full touch user interface
Dimensions: 111 x 51.7 x 15.5 mm
Weight: 109 g
Volume: 83 cc
Touch user interface optimised for one-hand use with tactile feedback Display and 3D
Main display- Size: 3.2"- Resolution: 640 x 360 pixels (nHD)- Up to 16 million colours- aspect ratio 16:9- automatic orientation sensor (Accelerometer) for display rotation
3D image engine Keys and input method
Stylus, plectrum and finger touch support for text input and user interface control (alphanumeric keypad, full and mini qwerty keyboard, handwriting recognition, full screen handwriting for Chinese language)
Dedicated Media Bar touch key for access to music, gallery, share on-line, Video Centre and web browser
Voice commands
Physical keys for application launch key (menu key), send & end, power, camera, lock, volume up & down Colours and covers
Available in-box colours:- Red- Blue- BlackAvailable colours may vary per region. Connectors
Micro-USB connector, USB 2.0 High Speed
3.5 mm Nokia AV connector
MicroSD card slot, small DC jack, Micro USB cable interface to PC (CA-101), TV out interface (CA-75U) Power
BL-5J 1320 mAh Li-Ion battery
Talk time (maximum):- GSM 8.8 h- WCDMA 5 h
Standby time (maximum):- GSM 406.2 h- WCDMA 400 h
Browsing time with packet data (maximum): 3.4 h
Video playback time (maximum): 5.2 h, Video playback time (maximum, nHD/Mpeg4) 3.4 h, VGA video playback using TV-Out with Stereo BT Headset 3.8 h
Video recording time (maximum): 3.6 h
Video call time (maximum): 3 h
Music playback time (maximum): Up to 35 h
Gaming time (maximum): 5.6 h Memory
MicroSD memory card slot, hot swappable, max. 16 GB
81 MB internal memory
8GB microSD memory card in-box, expandable up to 16GB
Communication and navigation
Communication and navigation
Operating frequency
WCDMA 900/2100
GSM/EDGE 850/900/1800/1900
WCDMA 850/1900 (Latin America and Brazil variant only)
Automatic switching between GSM bands
Flight mode Data network
CSD
HSCSD
GPRS/EDGE class B, multislot class 32, maximum speed 296/177 kbps (DL/UL)
WCDMA 2100/900 with simultanous voice and packet data, maximum speed PS 384/384 kbps (UL/DL), CS maximum speed 64 kbps
HSDPA cat 6, maximum speed 3.6 Mbps (DL)
WLAN IEEE 802.11 b/g (3G version only)
TCP/IP support Local connectivity and synchronization
Bluetooth version 2.0- Bluetooth profiles: A2DP & AVRCP
MTP (Mobile Transfer Protocol) support
TV out with Nokia Video Connectivity Cable (CA-75U, in-box)
Support for PC synchronisation with Nokia OVI Suite Call features
Integrated hands-free speakerphone
Number screening for messaging and calls
Automatic answer with headset or car kit
Any key answer
Call waiting, call hold, call divert
Call timer
Logging of dialled, received and missed calls
Automatic redial
Speed dialling
Voice dialling: speaker independent dialling and voice commands (SIND)
Fixed dialling number support
Vibrating alert (internal), also with tactile feedback
Side volume keys
Mute/unmute
Contacts bar for 4 contacts with images and communication history (SMS, IM, email, web feeds)
Talking ring tones
Conference calling with up to 6 participants
Video calling: up to 3h, QCIF 176 x 144 pixels, low up to 5 fps, normal up to 10 fps, smooth up to 15 fps Messaging
SMS
Multiple SMS deletion
MMS version 1.3, message size up to 600 kb
Automatic resizing of images for MMS
Nokia Xpress audio messaging
Common inbox for SMS and MMS messages
Number screening for messaging
Distribution lists for messaging
Instant messaging client
Cell broadcast E-mail
Supported protocols: IMAP, POP, SMTP
Support for e-mail attachments
OMA e-mail notification support
Mail for Exchange 2008 in DL client, in 2009 embedded Web browsing
Supported markup languages: HTML, XHTML, WML
Supported protocols: HTTP, WAP, JavaScript
TCP/IP support
OSS browser
Nokia Mobile Search GPS and navigation
Integrated GPS for pedestrian and car navigation
Nokia Maps 2.0 Touch application
Image and sound
Image and sound
Photography
3.2 megapixel camera (2048 x 1536 pixels)
Image formats: JPEG
Carl Zeiss optics
3x digital zoom
Autofocus
Dual LED flash
Flash modes: On, off, automatic, red-eye reduction
White balance modes: automatic, sunny, cloudy, incandescent, fluorescent
Centre weighted auto exposure; exposure compensation: +2 ~ -2EV at 0.5 step
Normal, Sepia, Black&White, Vivid, Negative
Dedicated camera key
Landscape (horizontal) orientation
Photo editor on device
Direct printing to compatible picture printers Video
Main cameraVideo recording at up to 640 x 480 pixels and up to 30 fps (TV high quality), up to 640 x 352 pixels and up to 30 fps (widescreen quality), up to 320 x 240 pixels and up to 30 fps/15 fps (email high/normal quality), up to 176 x 144 and up to 15 fps (sharing quality)- Up to 4x digital video zoom
Front camera for video calling
Video recording file formats: .mp4, .3gp
Audio recording formats: WAV (normal), AMR (MMS), AAC/MP4 (high quality)
Video white balance modes: automatic, sunny, cloudy, incandescent, fluorescent
Scene modes: automatic, night
Colour tone modes: normal, sepia, black & white, vivid, negative
Clip length (maximum): 1 h 30 min (high or normal quality). Dependable on available memory.
RealPlayer
Video playback file formats: MPEG4-SP playback 30fps VGA, MPEG4-AVC playback 30fps QVGA, WMV9 playback 30fps QVGA, MPEG4-SP playback 30 fps nHD
Video streaming: 3GPP and CIF
Landscape mode video playback
Video editor on device
Video Centre service supported: download and stream video content, WMV support, video feeds Music and audio playback
Nokia Nseries digital music player- Playlists- 8-band graphical equalizer- selection by artist, composers, album and genrealbum graphics display and audio visualisationsbass booster, stereo widening, loudness
Music playback file formats: .mp3, SpMidi, AAC, AAC+, eAAC+, WMA
Dedicated volume keys & immediate access to Music Player from Media Bar, dedicated music keys in the headset control unit AD-54
Stereo FM radio
3.5 mm Nokia AV connector
Music Player
Nokia Music Manager
Nokia Music Store support
Nokia Podcasting support
Ring tones: 3D stereo ring tones, 64-tone polyphonic, mp3 & video ring tones (3 videos and 9 mp3 songs built-in)
Integrated stereo speakers with surround sound (crystal clear hi-fi sound quality with dedicated audio chip) Voice and audio recording
Voice commands
Speaker-independent name dialling (SIND)
Voice recorder
AMR, NB-AMR, FR, EFR
Digital stereo microphone Personalisation: profiles, themes, ring tones
Customisable profiles
Ring tones: 3D stereo ring tones, 64-tone polyphonic, mp3 & video ring tones
Themes
Software
Software
Software platform and user interface
S60 5th edition
Symbian OS version 9.4
Active standby
Media Bar
Contacts bar Personal information management (PIM): contacts, clock, calendar etc.
Support for assigning images to contacts
Support for contact groups
Clock: analogue and digital, world clock
Alarm clock
Reminders
Calculator
Calendar with week and month view
Converter
Notes
To-do list Applications
Java TM MIDP 2.0
Flash Lite 3.0
Games: 3D Bounce and Global Race, DVD: Ulead VTB
Nokia Music Store
Nokia Maps
Map loader
PC Download
PC Photos
OVI Suite with Nokia Music
Download!
Share on OVI
Adding more applications:- Over-the-air (OTA) downloads Gaming
Games: 3D Bounce and Global Race
Sales package contents
Sales package contents
5800 XpressMusic with pen stylus
Battery (BL-5J)
High Efficiency Charger (AC-8)
Music Headset (HS-45, AD-54)
Video-out Cable (CA-75U)
Connectivity Cable (CA-101)
8 GB microSDHC card (MU-43)
Carrying Case (CP-305)
Stand (DT-29)
Stylus plectrum in wrist strap (CP-306)
Extra pen stylus
User guide and Quick guide
Mini DVD
Accessories
Accessories
Recommended accessories
Nokia Stereo Headset (WH-500)
Nokia Bluetooth Stereo Headset (BH-504)
Nokia Mini Speakers (MD-8) Compatible car solutions
Nokia Car Kit CK-100 Compatible accessories
Nokia Mini Speakers MD-6
Nokia Bluetooth Speakers MD-7W
Nokia Bluetooth Stereo Headset BH-503
Support and related documents
Support and related documents
Related documents
SAR certification information
Eco Declaration (.pdf, 52 KB)
Declaration of Conformity The availability of the product and its features depends on your area and service providers, so please contact them and your Nokia dealer for further information. These specifications are subject to change without notice.

Sorry for the semi long post =D

Well its not easy for me to list down all the features.

But I can say you all wont regret getting this phone, unless you all wish to look forward to the next touch screen phone by nokia which is the N series N97 =)

Oh ya I met serena ytd at yakun causeway point ^^

Managed to return her all her clothes and took 2 pics with her =)

Managed to lost more than 6kg after my bf broke up with me.. Well I do look thinner than I used to be.. BE happy for me okies? ^^

Emo-in

2009-03-02T10:55:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. all these 4 yrs.. no matter what happen to him or no matter whether is he jobless or no matter how pple looks down on him.. it never waver my love and care for him.. I stood by him... loving and caring for him...
Just when my family members washed their hands on me and refusing to care for me.. he choose to avoid and abandon me when I need him the most..
I stood by your side for the whole 4 yrs coz I believe you can be someone you can prove people wrong about their judgement of you...
But well... when I really need you.. Yes I need you, i need your love and concern, I do not need your wealth or anything. I never once be with you for the sake of ur money.
You choose to leave me. All alone.. Fighting alone, crying at one corner.. Avoiding me....
When something bad happens... You only looked at my bad points..
Have you ever consider everything I've done for you in these 4 yrs?
No you never tried...
That breaks my heart...

I cant stop blaming myself

2009-02-26T12:31:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since both of us broke up..
I still love him and I still miss him so badly..
So many people have gave me so much advice that he isnt worth it..
But keep blaming myself..
If I've been more gentle on him, if my temper is better this wouldnt have happen...
I cant stop crying... I cant stop blaming myself...
oh god....
What is going to happen to me...

A Real Fresh Start

2009-02-24T07:17:00.002+08:00

Hey people, i guess I got over my boyfriend already?
I tried to call him yesterday that I wish to go and get my clothings well...
Not even one call he dares to answer.
Well i dont blame hiiim I guess...
If my daddy never follow me over with him I think I wont be able to get my stuffs back also.
Well someone extra is in his room *hint hint* well those clever enough should know what I meant.
A riot at the scene there and well....
I still love him no matter what, dont ask me why...
I'm just glad I managed to hug him one last time before the whole thing end. Maybe I cant let him go.. But its all over... Haiz.
But one thing sad is he pushes all the blame towards me..
I know my temper is bad and mainly is the cause of it, my elder brother scolded me, if I've been more gentle on him, maybe all these wouldnt have happen in the first place..
Well fine.. My fault ok?
Well he's a avid flirter in the net...
No David, if you ever bother to read my blog for once, do try to understand, what do you meant since I cant tahan you msg-in other girls in the net then we shouldnt be together?
Thats total bullsh*t.
Any sane girl that LOVES you will sure to get upset over this!
I dont believe you can say this line so childishly..
Plus, your degrading yourself by going out further with me?
I have no comments. These aint a words from a real man.
So be it.
I've love u all my life I've care for you all my life, yes I may have keep shouting at you most of the time, but it doesnt meant you dont mean a thing in my heart.
Just because you meant so much to me thats why I always keep scolding you.
Sometimes rationally and sometimes just childishly. You too had your share of doing stupid and silly things.
You do not know how much you have hurt my heart all these 4 yrs by bringing girls home and fooling around with them. You will never know... you will never know..
I've know where I went wrong and I am willing to learn from my mistakes.
Dont say for your next girl you will be faithful.
Actions are louder than words.
I have faith in you all these yrs, but in the end you just disappoint me till the end..
Take care David, like I said i never regret loving you or caring for you.
Thank you for all your love and kindness and tolerant all these yrs, you really make me felt so loved from a guy for once. Whether is it real or false..
Bye...

I feel so miserable...

2009-02-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

I did the most stupidest thing on earth!!!
Why didnt I realise my temper sooner!!!
Right now my dear is not willing to forgive me!
Its all my fault..
I've been crying 2 days straight when he choose to break up with me..
Now I am still crying while typing this blog.
I never knew losing someone you love so badly can be so hurtful...
I really love him and I really need him....
Last time de me is so childish and inconsiderate..
Right now I've known where I've went wrong.. I really just wish he would give me that chance..
Now no matter what I said he will not listen nor forgive me...
I really love him...
God, why am I such a bitch....
I know i cant lose him but yet I still lose my temper at him....
Give me a chance... I am willing to change for the better... I really need him by my side...
But why god you aint giving me this chance.
He said alot of hurtful things towards me but I know he just said it in a fit of anger..
I am so sorry dear..
I didnt mean it..
I never did..
Now i know you'd condem me saying i will not change, but I will change. I swear.... I really need you... Dont say you dont love me.. I know you do.... Dont let go of me.. I need you....
I love you... But I need you to give me that chance...
Please I beg of you..........
I'm trying my best to look for a job already.. but I need you by my side to support me...
Please? I really beg of you..
Without you by my side I really feel like dying.... You keep saying without you I will survive.. But your wrong.. I really need you...
My heart hurts...
Someone save me...
No actually don't...
Without him i choose death..
I rather die than lose him...

God i beg of you... I just need that last chance.
I will cherish him forever....

Edited

2009-02-19T21:26:00.005+08:00

I really do not know what to think anymore..

My Friend's Mer-Benz Convertable

2009-02-18T11:14:00.002+08:00

Well i didnt get much of the pictures taken coz I am actually sittin inside the car rather than outside taking pictures of the exterior of the car, will do so when i geto to meet up with him again xD

Videos

2009-02-18T11:04:00.002+08:00

Oh ya i almost forgot, here's a home made video by me and my bf recently at the one and only hotspring in singapore.

Location: Chong Pang Camp
How to get there: You can take bus 969 or 858 from woodlands interchange and alight one stop before the chongpang busstop and walk to the small gate beside the Gambas Ave stretch of road.

Here's the video, enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gs57-CIfOUQ

until i know how to embedle the thing i guess this will how it will be

Betrayal again?

2009-02-17T12:27:00.002+08:00

Well i know my dear is a avid flirt from the past and I am still afraid he will do the same again now. so just nice i borrow my friend's passion to check on him ok I know I am in the wrong to check on him. But do anyone of you wish to be with a man that cheats on you in the near future?

And guess what he is online right now, i confronted him and he said I wrongly accused him but hell... I do not know what to think anymore its like I am so devoted to him all the time and he choose to do this to me.

He told me to msg that guy who accessed his account (do anyone of you buy this story?)
I say why should i?
Its like i dunno, i just hope I am thinking too much again.
Yea I really hope I am thinking too much otherwise my head is gonna explode.
I rally wish to spend my lifetime with him but i dont think he wish to do the same for me...

Really. I wish I was dead. Till now thats what i hope for....
Haha.... Stupid and silly me. But..... I still hope I am dead....

Feeling Crappy

2009-02-16T15:42:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps. welll I didnt know that I'd post another entry again.
Well I'm bored cant blame the poor girl and doing so right?

Well latest updates in the Australian bush fires are.... They are suing singapore for one of the bush fire in australia.
Well i'm not siding people and i know how upset that they are feeling over the lost of their homes and death of their people.

I'm not at australia so i cant comment much on it.

condolences to the family members of the death victims.
Haiz.
This world is getting weirder and weirder..

Late Valentine Day Entry

2009-02-16T11:41:00.004+08:00

hi there people sorry for not updating my blog recently coz I'm out of juice to blog, i'm not a avid blogger like xiaxue or dawn or any other famous bloggers so pardon me.

one thing that i am so happy about is my boyfriend of 4 yrs FINALLY gave me a rose on valentines day, i know this sounds ironic but I am really so happy over it.

To him, he knows nothing about valentines day or all divorcee are like this which they do not give a dam about such small details.

ok ok listen me out before flaming me or anything, i've never ask him to buy anything for me on valentines day christmas or any other nice festivals. Thus he did this on his own so that why I am happy.

I know people will say why so happy over one puny rose? to you all it may just be one rose, to me it means alot to me. So be it, not happy you can close this blog page. I nvr force anyone of you to read on. Wahahaha. Blah w/e

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

If it was a every yr thingy i wouldnt have taken pictures of the roses and post it in my blog at all..

ahahahaha

ok I'm nuts.

Yesterday i sat on my friend's convertable, its so chio! Mercedes Benz Advangarde c200! Its so chio! And driving around singapore with the top down is how to enjoy life I dare say.

I just wonder why buy a soft top convertable when you all drive it with the top up!

Its just such a waste of luxery!

Argh!!! I want one!!! It makes me feel so good getting to sit in one!

Someone buy it for me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *puppy eyes*

lol ok I will stop this post here since i basically covered what I've intended to post xD

Tatas~ and have a great day everyone =D

Omg I cant believe i neglated my blog!

2009-02-09T11:14:00.002+08:00

To hell and death with me!

I'm so sorry my precious blog i didnt meant to ignore you in any ways!
Pls forgive me~!!!!
Nuuuuuuu!!! Dont punish me!!!!
*horror scene input*

Alright enough with crapping around.
Its been almost 2 yrs i'm jobless and I am so freaking useless ya.. Haiz..
Yes i hate myself to the core. Seems like the case.

Sounds like I'm bloggin to be emoing around which I guess is true or not I am not sure anyway.
My bf found a job at lucky plaza selling handphones.
Actually I am very insecure about our relationship.

Ofcoz he bought the cupboard and bed and changed the room for both of us to stay in i am touched.
Maybe I'm just a useless girlfriend..
Haiz...
Hope I will grow more mature soon.
Otherwise I do not what to think about my ownself...

Recently I am hooked onto some gossip news but its mostly R21
thus click on the link on your own risk - http://thegutterpost.blogspot.com

Oh ya add me in facebook if you alll are playing it
- lostangelzzz@hotmail.com
arigato~

Hmm... What other new updates can i post..
Lets see....
I'm still fat as ever and growing fatter by the day.
My baby nephew at last is going to sch.
But he is down with fever thus keep missing sch oh well..
All is zhu ding de.. cant say much

Ok la... any updates or pictures pls go to my facebook and view them I'm too lazy to post it here.. kinda draggy..
Hahaha
Will update later when i feel like it =X

Cya all

Sick and Tired

2008-12-02T17:45:00.002+08:00

Hi there everyone..
looks like mysad posts will be tempory on the stop at the moment... Its juz wondering when will it come back again.
Choy choy choy!
Hope it doesnt comes back anymore!

Hahaha.. I fell sick again! this time the sickness is being pass to me by my mom.
Oh well..
Sore throat and serious case of flu.
Right now my nose is so red it resembles rudolf the red nose raindeer!
Oh no!!!!
This is not good at all.
Wahahaha..

I'm lame I know..
Juz tired I guess, havent been sleeping much anymore.

Hope I get a job soon...
I feel like I'm such a useless girl that cant do anything well at all...
What should I do?
I know I havent been trying hard enough and I hate myself for it also..

I miss my friends.
I miss pea!
Get your arse back to SG immediately PEABOT!!!!
Wahaha, Ling leo and me miss u tonnes.
Anyway fk leo and his rozen dolls =x
He dont need them~
Wahahah let him think of them all day long.
Japan seems like a nice place to go to.
Lol
Hopefully one day I Get to go there also.
Hopefully.... Yea hopefully..

Been playing RappelzSEA a new RPG game by asiasoft recently..
I've been retraining until I see stars in my eyes..
Total of 3 characters, a archer, a dark mage and a strider.
Oh well at the moment I'm concentrating on my strider.
I like my dark mage but the pot cool down time is a killer and is so hard to train properly when the mana usuage is so high..
What to do!!!

Sobs sobs.
As for maple, I need my maple warrior lvl 20 and my horntail necklace.
But when will it be my turn?
Dunno how sia..
Sobs sobs.

Anymore update.

oh ya talked to Ah Bee ytd night.
Looks like she's doing well in her studies oversea.
And will be back 9 months later. Hopefully.

Dear's 29th Birthday is coming soon.
I wonder where to bring him to go eat..
Somewhere ok?
Someplace me and David can afford?
Ok lor zhi cha then?
Thats the best we can do also.
Last yr we treat dear to... Ajisan Ramen.
Seems like ok for dear dear ba..
But quite ex for small portions thou.

Thus this yr must budget abit.

Darling I miss you so much.
Haiz I hope you can go home early tonight I miss being beside you.
I miss hugging you and kissing you also.
Haiz..
I love you thats most important.

And your that one important person in my life.
Hope its the same for you..
Love you miss you..

Hmm..

The rain juz stopped and the sky is so bright! again!
ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I hate it to the max..
Sobs!! My eyes!!! Nuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so sleepy from the sickness but i cantt wait to meet my dear tonight thou.
I'd try my best not to sleep for his sake.
Ok then I'll continue my posting when I reach bugis tonight then.
Cya guys

Thoughts thoughts thoughs

2008-11-17T15:14:00.003+08:00

Well.... I've been thinking alot lately...

Am I the cause of all the misery between me and my bf?
Because I'm too possive or anything?
My temper is very bad? (this i admit)
I mean like who would wanna share their loved ones with another person.
Does it make sense or not then?

Or is it I'm too useless to get a job and my bf have to keep supporting me thats why he is so sick and tired of meeting me...
I believe I'm the useless one here.. not my bf..
Everytime I scold him is for his own good...
But for a long period of time maybe to him I'm just letting off steam at him instead of loving him anymore....

Once again I will say this.. I love him for who he is.. Not his income, not his qualifications or family background, nor looks or anything...
Hahaha you may say I'm foolish to say this..
Always look for the best guys out there..
Why keep the not so good ones to yourself?

All i can say he is the only one who accepted me as who i am in the past... Fat, useless, childish naive...
He is the only one who showered me with love.
He is the only one who showed me that girls like me can have true love to themselfs.

I really cannot survive without him..
This is the truth in my heart.
I really love him and i miss him badly each day.
Is it so hard to love someone?
He is my everything..

I may be foolish and stupid to keep being with him after all the hurtful things he had done to me in the past.
But heck!
Its the present that counts!
All i wish is for him to love me more, miss me more... Be faithful to me forever.

I know work is very stressful to him right now.
I've told him what he should have listen already and its something that should not be mentioned here, thus so my apologies.

I want him to be happy, i wish that he will keep his promise that I will really be his wife in the future to come.

Like i said. He is my everything, my priorities are him first.
He dotes on me like a princess yes thats true, only recently all that changed.
I believe its something tempory.
And i really wish to believe his feelings for me are true and real plus he loves me and needs me as much as he used to be.

Dear I love you with all my heart and thats the fact.
I do not wish for you to doubt me or anything.
I hope you really understand your irreplacable from my heart, from now and ever.
My feelings are true and forever will be...
Maybe I can express myself better in words. Saying it out might be different..
I love you and i always will.

Haiz.....

2008-11-13T19:46:00.002+08:00

I dunno what am I thinking already is it me thats too sensitive or what?

My bf doesnt allow me to wait for him in bugis like i used to do for the past 1 yr..
Whats gotten into him?

To be precised what the hell did his those gang of 'friends' said to him to result in such a thing right after his In Camp Training..

He said my stubboness scares the hell out of hiim.

Yes I am stubbon to meet him coz I miss him badly each day... Simply put. I cant survive without seeing his face even one day. I miss his hugs, kisses and touch...

I'm not like other girls. Demanding any gifts, or he must bring me out for a date weekly or even movies... I just want him to notice me more.

I just want him to dote on me more. I just want him to love me more... I really do not know what his friends said... I know it isnt good things. Otherwise he wouldnt have a change of heart and treats me so harshly and cruely...

What am I to him anyway? Just a companion? Someone to call when he cant find anyone to pei him?

Or am I his love one like he claimed me to be?

I'm in a lost and I really do not know what to think anymore...

Someone pls help me..
I do not wish to give up on a 4 yr relationship i fought for so badly...

Am i really so annoying just because I do not let him go drinking with his friends when it hurts his body badly...
Is it a sin or crime to do so?

If he doesnt love me I rather he tell me right in the face than doing such tricks to me..

It hurts me alot and I'm very sad over it...

I've been crying 3 weeks straight due to his change of heart and actions...

God why must you do this to me...
This is one of the small happiness i fought for... and I do not wish to let go of it so easily....
Pls show some pity to me...
I'm at the end of my wits...

I do not know what to think anymore...

2008-11-12T12:48:00.001+08:00

Hi there.. Managed to meet my bf ytd night at last and he promised to meet me today and guess what i get for a bomb shell?

He's going to celebrate his fren's birthday for the 2nd time this week!

BRAVO!!!!!!

I ask if i can go he immediately say no. No way....

Friends again and again and again...

I am so sick and tired of all these... Seriously if he doesnt love me then why he keep keeping me beside him...
Send me away throw me out dont say he love me!
I am reallly tired and speechless le...

This new blog is supposed to be for all the happy things and times I have with him ended up its all ranting and sad stuffs...

I am so tired....

Am I so annoying that nobody loves me?

2008-11-11T15:10:00.002+08:00

Haiz, I'm out of words already....
My dear lied to me to go to his friend's birthday celebration.. and guess what made me wait for him in bugis without any calls or replies from his msg...
This is so hurting....
He say I'm stressing him out due to my stubboness..

I know I am very stubbon. But i love him and i want the best for him... Work as well as friends...
He cant drink, and yet he chooses to keep drinking.. He do not know the extensive damage he is doing to his own body...

Am i so useless that my love for him meant nothing that he always have to lie to me about anything?

I miss his hugs, i miss his kisses, i miss his body temperature, I miss his touch...

I am a very simple girl.. all i want is for him to even take a look at me even by abit notice any changes i had with me.. I really wish to the be the most important person in his heart and nobody else...

He is my everything he is my priority.. My friends have told me not to be foolish and leave him for good..
I cant.. Not after being together for 4 yrs..
To you all it might be short.

To me these 4 yrs has caused me to be madly and deeply in love with him.

All i want is just for him to love me even by abit more... Cherish me by abit more...
Love hurts.. really hurts...
My heart is so pain right now... I really wonder why...

Haiz

2008-11-08T08:42:00.002+08:00

I noticed recently all my posts are regarding how my bf rather go pei his friends and choose to bastard me for no reason.

Recently there's an incident that made me so angry..On wednesday night, he told me he will meet me at yishun at 10.30pm instead coz he wants to go apologise to his friend blah blah blah. Fine I let him go..

Guess what time I Waited till?

6.30am then he came home.

Do not dare to ans any of my calls.

What if his dad didnt open the door for me to go into the house?

Meaning I have to wait for him at the staircase the whole night long?tmdI have never been to humilated in my entired life.

I think he is the only one who dares to do such thing to me!

FUCK IT!

I'm Just Plain Bored..

2008-11-02T11:42:00.003+08:00

Hmm... I wonder why i cant post long blogs like i used to be any more in the past. Maybe I'm juz not used to long windedness I guess?
Lol anyway, I went to meet my dear at bugis ytd night after his work and I camwhore abit while waiting for him to come find me at Rockery.

Was drinking a Strawberry Greentea with Aero Vera and I bought a Greentea double pearl for my dear to drink.

Wore makeup ytd and as expected he NVR notice i put on any makeup at all.
Blah What a Disappointment.

This is so sianz lor...

Sometimes really hate him for insensitiveness...
This is so stupid -.-

Anyway The pictures of my Camwhoring is right below. Enjoy.

Managed to take pictures with my dear after donkey yrs! And AT LAST HE SMILES!!!!!!!!!!!!

HORRAY!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sorry for the big reaction.

Sad n forever sad

2008-10-31T11:35:00.002+08:00

Hi there. Like my last post i posted in caps right?
My guess is right. My bf went drinking that night.
And opended 3 bottles of hard liqour. (wow so rich y the money dont give me better?)
Doesnt matter.
He's home dead drunk at 6am.
And pushes me away when I tried to take care of him.

Now i know le he lost his whole bag in the process!
Wow!
Clever!
Items lost: one black notebook bag, a black casio camera, a hp pda and a bluetooth headset.

Took him around till 9pm to be sober and abit better to walked around..
Anyway got a lunch appointment with Barry at his office at UOB plaza 1 on monday...
Hope I'll get what i asked for that day.
A job would be better.
hahahahaha....
Anyway I do not know how to be together with my boyfriend any longer.

I'm so sick and tired of his actions!

Frens and MORE FRENZ

2008-10-29T23:56:00.002+08:00

I'M FEELING DAM ANGRY RIGHT NOW SO I AM GONNA POST MY BLOG IN CAPS FOR TODAY!

TMD CCB! PROMISE LIM BEI WILL MEET DAY ENDED UP LEH? I GO BUGIS FIND U U SAY FRENZ CALL DEN WAN GO MEET THEM!

NB WHAT TALK ABOUT JOB OPPORTUNITIES! PCB IS JUST WANNA GO DRINK NIA!

SORRY I AM REALLY PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW SO THIS BLOG ENTRY WILL HAVE ALOT OF VULGARITIES!!!!!

YA YA FRIENDS CALL IS GOD MUST GO OUT IMMEDIATELY SAY WILL ANS MY CALLS NO MATTER WHAT ENDED UP ALSO ANS SHIT!

LIM BEI STUPID NVR BREAK UP WITH YOU PROPERLY.
OK I STUPID I AM A DUMB FUCKER TO KEEP BELIEVING IN YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN! HAPPY? TREATING ME LIKE A CLOWN!

I LOVE YOU SO BIG FUCK! WHAT DO I GET IN RETURN? LIES LIES LIES AND MORE LIES!

PCB LA! EVEN IF I DIE U ALSO WONT CRY DE!

LIKE I TOLD U BEFORE I'M A NOBODY'S CHILD MA.
NO ONE WANTS ME.
WHO WOULD WANT A FAT ASS GIRL LIKE ME FOR A GF.

YOU JUST WANTED ME FOR BACK UP PURPOSES MA..

EVERYTIME DRUNK LE ASK FOR JOREEN, JASMIN AR.
FUCK OFF LA.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

$)%*$(%*#$(&(rept(_$%&(werc*(@$*_*$_&&%(&(!#@(&$(#*$%_()*)*)~*$)*%*%(^*%)((*

I FEEL LIKE DYING MAN!

HAHAHAHAA

SOMEONE JUST KILL ME LA. I SEE NO POINT IN LIVING IN THIS WORLD LE!

My Acer Extensa 4620

2008-10-28T11:08:00.000+08:00

Hi there everyone Sandra/Huiru desu~ I'm here today to talk about my sleeky and sexy acer notebook.

*hears curses and swearing*

Well I heard and read lots of people bitching about how bad the acer products are and how sucky it is.

Such things are for individual preferences

For my case I think it roxs. This model is a free set that comes with the Singnet Broadplan last year. Plus my current laptop is a 2nd hand one which I bought from someone else a few months ago.

Well how can i say it works well thou pple complaining the over heating thingy.

Well laptop cooling pad is around for a reason. No matter how good the laptop you bought or how expensive it is. It still needs a laptop cooling pad.

Ofcoz if your trying to say your rich enough to buy a new one when your laptop spoiles then I have nothing to say.

I'm not rich and i'm in a well to do family. What ever...

Behold my sexy laptop pictures.

*disclaimer* All the thoughts are based on personal preferences. You do not like acer products you can jolly well close this blog page

Front View of my Acer Extensa 4620

Specifications of my laptop. Its the basics but it works well with most application and no lagginess at all

My USB Plug and Play TDK Speakers. Its VERY LOUD. Do not underestimate it!

My Sleek Bluetooth Razor Mouse *Side View*

My Sleek Bluetooth Mouse again! *Top View* and with my Barracuda Lite Mouse Pad!

Well that concludes my blog posting for my computer. I'll add on if i can think of anything else.

Enjoy =P

Camwhoring and Updates

2008-10-27T14:00:00.000+08:00

Well last post i written i am angry that my dear didnt give me a call back right?

My worst nightmare came truth. He went out to drink with those bunch of stupid morons n bus-tards until 8am next morning.

Try that on for size and he still dare to lie to me that he had reached home at 1am that night and is too tired to call me to tell me.

what a retarded liar..
I am so sicked of him!

I'm just too softhearted. I really wish to leave him but he still find ways and means to retain me by his side. Am i too 犯贱 or what.

I do not like to question him so much neither do i wish to distrust him. But he keep on making me not trust him from the start i do not know what to do any longer....

Now charging my camera battery. I do not know how many donkey ages did i not discharge it from the start. Wahahahaha....

As long as it doesnt die on me I am very very happy.

I'm feelin so sad right now. I do not know what to do anymore. Is this guy worth my troubles?

Is he really the one for me. If your boyfriends never lie to you or anything neither one of you would have lose your temper at them right??

This is such a simple concept.

I told him before. He wish to go out for dinner with them is a OKAY! But DO NOT go drinking at the pub! Its not a hard request right? Why do he need to keep defying me over and over again.

Whats the point of asking me for permission to go out when he doesnt even bother to listen. Might as well dont ask!

Ok enough of him I'm sick of talking about him in my blog at the moment.
Yea I did camwhore a bit with my camera b4 it went totally flat.

Ok I know I'm fat but I cant help it being vain! Wahahaha
Ok la I'm just a normal person who likes to take photographs.

Hi there I know I'm like I'm gonna kill someone when I actually am not =P

Taken while lying on my banket

Weird Pose isnt it?

Lying down flat on my tummy

Yes I am a camwhore and I am vain. But pls note I am FAT. But i just like to take photos!

What a flop

2008-10-25T14:48:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Suddenly feel like photoshopping some stuffs so i went to dig out an old photoshop cd i downloaded from the past and pop it into my laptop to install. to my dismay it isnt working!!!
Argh!

What a bad day i have. when i feel like doing something, the something doesnt works for me.

Shit

End of In Camp Training

2008-10-25T09:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was supposed to be a happy day but he choosed to ruin it badly for me, we're supposed to meet and he leave the times for his stupid friends and guess what do not dare to ans my calls.

you know what does that means? he went drinking again. Everytime with him he complains not enough sleep and he still can go out and drink until the wee hours

fuck him, fuck them all!

I'm just stupid enough to keep loving him and be at his side.
He's not worth anything!

ICT Day 2 and 3

2008-10-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

I didnt expect I'll pile these two days together...
Anyway

Day2
=====
Is missing badly but he's too busy to reply any of my msg and I can understand why too..
The stupid army went to up his rank to sergent major and he is incharged of all things..

Poor dear being worked to death in the army too when u already get the same treatment at work at ATF Multimedia. Those stupid bosses who cant even differenciate whos the real people whos working their asses off for them and who is not.

Well thx to Mr. AK, most of their daily sales went into his pocket LOL
Good job! Let them earn lesser money WAHAHAHAHHA

I am so bad..
Anyway the day went pass quite badly. Anson is so naughty as usual its so hard to teach him!

NO calls from him for the whole day, then he called me at night, his fren drives him out for dinner... Oh well.. Hahahaha... follow by they went to lot 1 to do some grocery shopping at ntuc.

then dear starts to be busy for the whole night again.
the last thing i got his call would be at 1.20am. Oh my god..!
STOP ABUSING HIM!! AND HE IS THE LAST PERSON OF THE WHOLE GROUP OF 100 PLUS THAT SLEPT

Talked to him for a while after he bathed finish and he and me both went to bed. (Seperate beds ofcoz)

Day 3
=====

Gave him a morning call at 5.45am afraid that he will overslept and well it works. but cancelling my call instead. Lol...
So i sleep in till 8am...

Today dear have range shooting until... 4pm
I went out with jason for a while...

Dear get to go home today. So happy!
Went to meet him and send him home.
Went for dinner...
And he's tired so i let him sleep in.
Help him change him clothes and I went home at around 11.54pm
Now still online typing this blog.

Ok la i go sleep le night all

1st Day of In Camp Training (ICT)

2008-10-20T12:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm, lets see.... I stayed over at my dear's home yesterday night and I fell asleep (again) cox he is busy packing his stuffs for ICT today...
Well had fun (do not think otherwise) being beside him and I miss him already.
It feels so good when you get to hug you love ones during sleep. Makes it all worthwhile.
Anyway woke up at 5.45am this morning to prepare him for going to Katib Camp (usually used for reservist purposes only)
I slept in till 6.30am and he woke me up.
He looks so kawaii in his army uniform!!!
*faints~ Chuuu~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
Recently I've read xiaxue's blog as usual. Much the same long and windy and quite self centered.
Oh well.. hahaha not really much of my problem anyway. She is she while me is me.
Last thrusday me and dear went to my darling nana's fren's condo for a swim (supposingly), but they are just busy on the net with another xiaxue wannabe. I forgot her blog site name so i wont post it here.
too bad so sad..
Hahahah.
Ended up we reached at 9.45am and drag the time till almost 11pm and then told us that its not really wise to swim in the night cox the security guard will scold and complain to the management.
Well duh... if you all didnt really wanna swim can just tell us from the start and we would not have waited for so long or dont come at all..
haiz.. what a waste of a night off for my dear..
Well my dear walked off and I can see my darling quite angry so is her friend vivian.
Well darling hasnt been talking to me for days and I can see why but oh well.. havent been talking to her for ages so i dont really feel the pain any longer..
She is still the same as usual, something happended to her and I shall not post any of the infomation here cox its her private life.
Ok now is 1.02pm and 5hrs 30mins since my dear went to ICT.
I miss him so much!
oh my goodness..
My heart is aching already... Dear faster come home... I'm missing you so much....
Sobs...

Staying Over

2008-10-19T02:34:00.000+08:00

Hi there~
I'm typing this blog at my boyfriend's house.
Well I wanted to stay over tomorrow night actually is this coming night, since its already sunday when 12am hits.
hahahahaha
I'm bored cox he's busy packing for his In Camp Training a.k.a ICT.
I dont want him to go~
I dont get to see him for the next 5 days!!!
Nuuuu~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've became a lifeless whore~
Wahahaha. I'm one sad case aint I?
Lets see whats there to update well nothing much other than I'm still jobless and my boyfriend is losing his job soon thx to 2 bastards at work. Well i also think that his current job is pointless...
And I'm really glad that he's leaving the job! Away from the bad influence and in comes the better one! Yay....
Ya ya ya stupid me what good influence can he get while working at SimLim Sq?
I'm am sure pure dumb..
Recently I'm trying to become a camwhore but.. I'm just too fat for the camera,
Sigh...
Really if i get any fatter still I really rather DIE!
Haha..
I think I'll just change and go home.. Pointless to stay over for now..
Will update this blog daily i hope..
Hahaha..
cya guys

Well updates updates....

2008-10-05T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hi there everyone its being a while since i update this blog again for dunno how many ages isnt itt?
Hahahaha. Maybe I just do not have the patient to update this daily...
Lets see... I still do not trust my own boyfriend after 3 yrs of relationship. Dont ask me why. Maybe he 2 timed me once too many times. May it be one night stand... I do not like it one bit.

Just get to know my own best friend from Gunbound got ditched by his own girlfriend of 2yrs 8months.. I feel so sorry for him and i hate those people who does not treat relationship seriously. You all think its just a game? Play and get over with it?

Pui!

I still love my boyfriend and he keep saying he love me.. Maybe he said this once too many times whenever he does something wrong that I'm immued to it....
Hahahaha or maybe I'm just mentally instabled. Maybe I should go to the mental hospital and check myself out...

Like to imagine things.. Not! Bad temper (ya this i know)

Anyway... I'm playing rohan online currently http://www.playrohan.com
its fun you all should try it out

Tired n Upset

2008-04-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

I'm upset and very tired...
After being together for 3 yrs and when i though he has changed for the better in the end he disappointed me again and yet again...
Guess what?
He brought a woman home this yr AGAIN!
I'm so sick and tired of it.
Why do i keep forgiving him? For what!
Why am I so stupid? Because I love him?
But whats there to love anymore. His heart is never with me at all...
I'm at the end of my wits. I cant feel his love anymore...

I really wonder, why diid he choosed me to be his girlfriend....
I just want him to be faithful.... Thats the only thing... But he cant even commit for 3 yrs together....
I just feel like dying... My mind is blank and my heart breaking into 2...
I wish I can just disappear from the surface of this earth...
Someone please help me.. I love him but yet he isnt being faithful...

I do not need a perfect boyfriend... that I found out recently.. I just want him to be faithful...
All the whispers of love and promises.. Can i believe in him once again?
I wish i can.. and I'm trying hard still..
This will be my last chance to him...
Lets just hope he changes for the better

1st post to test the day

2008-04-20T16:38:00.001+08:00

Test test. I've choosed to abandon my old blog and rewrite a new one..
just pray hard hard that I'll update this daily.